...and in three days time he was gone.

Apparently, I last for a week. He has chosen the right path. No regrets. I'm not the type of person who complicates things for others. But hell, I am very good at it when it comes to my own life. Oh yes. I just love it. The thrill. Tiptoeing won't get you anywhere. It doesn't even make its own marks. I've been on my toes for the past years... and I've decided to put my good shoes on and start walking.

Keep walking.

I told myself never to stop for anyone. Let them chase.
And when he finally catches up... I'd be there smiling. With open arms I shall welcome him and love him 'til eternity. Or until someone better comes. Just kiddin :)

I'll know. Soon.

Dear Someone,
I will always... always be here for you. I know this is wrong, but I have decided not to quit on you. I think what we're doing is selfish and unfair, but I just can't give up on something that made me feel so happy after a long time of emptiness. I know what I'm doing. It is perfectly clear that what we have will never be more than that.

I can't help falling for someone who've shown me how special I am. Someone who've appreciated me. Just plain me. Without any pretensions. Without first impressions that I won't be able to live up to.

I love how you get paranoid over things that might cause me pain. Don't worry. I have learned to protect myself from the negativities of the world. You've given so much without asking for anything in return, and I love you for that. I love how you just want to stay even if I push you away. By the way, pushing you away is just the hardest thing for me to do. But I have had too. I won't. Not anymore.

I want to let you know how I feel but I just can't. I'm scared I might lose you. I'm scared of facing the truth that once the chase is over, you might leave me and just move on.

I saw her. I think she has the kindest heart. She deserves you. I don't want to ruin things for her. For you. That would be pure evil of me. Seeing the two of you together just melts my heart. What you had have was real. I know that she would take care of you, and I'm scared that I won't be able to do the same. I'm just a little kid who depends on you too much.

No. I'm not pushing you away. What I want you to do is walk away. Just go. It would definitely hurt, but I can handle it. Just remember that you'll always have a place in my heart. I'm not saying that I will wait for you, because that might just complicate things again. Move on with her but if you decide to go back, I will be here. The roles might change but I'm still here. Just like I promised I would.