im confused about how im feeling. i like him. i think. i don't know.

why do i like love him?
- he made all the effort.
- he's a gentleman.
- he's sweet. naturally sweet.
- he's always there.
- he's soooo nice.
- he's taller than me. haha.
- he plays the piano.

i can't say all the details. i think i shouldn't disclose something as special as that. haha. =P

anyway. i love my bez.

im soooo stupid for letting those moments pass by. i dont know. he invited me to go out like 6.. no 7.. err... 8 times? i dont know. more i guess. pero yeah.. i never had time for him. now.. he doesn't have time for me.

this is sooo frustrating.

tsktsk.
im so shallow.
i know.
i should stop.
okay.
now.
go.

yesterday was an event-filled day. and where the hell am i? im at home. CRAP. i hate it. haha. i was late for the oblation run.. anyway.. i've seen the mini oble naman.. so yeah.. no lost there. yung lantern parade.. aaaargh. sayang sobra. someone announced na cancelled daw.. but yeah. ayun. natuloy pa rin. haaaay. anyway.. here's the story.

12pm. went to UP. too late for oble. waited for ian.. 2hrs passed. went home. fucking taxi driver was sooooo greedy. goddammit. 60php lang naman dapat fare ko. naging 100php. effingness kaya. anyway. i dont care. was too tired to care. watched a korean.. hmm.. romantic-slash-kinda-porn film.

art texted me. he told me na he's going to UP. i forgot to tell him it was cancelled. anyway.. hindi daw cancelled coz it was traffic. DA HELL? ang malas ko talaga. went to UP at around 7pm. met art.

hmm. cute ng bez ko. baet. he was with his friend kevin. we "strolled" down UP. haha. dumaan kami sa dorm ni ian.. wishing i would see her.. guess who i saw? si crushie number 3. and yeah.. i was thinking.. in your face crushie, im with someone now. HAHAHA. yikes. i sound pathetic. anyway. i dont care. weeeeeeeeeeee. cute ni bez.

ciao.
<3 astrud

...are out. omg.

22/40
weee. passed.

bakit ganun? mas mataas pa ko kay crush. hmm...

orayt. break na. hahaha. yeah. ang saya. anyway.. hindi magandang Christmas break ito. i have tons of work to do. effingness. rawr. oh well. let's start the season right by being positive. haha.

done with my physics 1st le. rawr. my friends said it was easy.. pero yeah. i beg to differ. bwahaha. i found it hard. why? because.. i was in total mental block yesterday. argh. i hate it. i thought studying in advance makes you more prepared.. well.. this works. but not for me. i guess im just not used to it.. anyway. let's foget about the past. well. it wasnt that bad naman pala coz we discussed the answers awhile ago.. and yeah. ok naman. i got correct answers din. weee :) haha.

i failed the 1st le in math. ARGH. why? i was uber careless. sobrang sayang coz i was doing the right thing naman pala pero mali-mali. like sa signs. one wrong move and you're dead. haha. tha's harsh. eeeeh talaga.

hmm. tinuruan kami ni miss legara ng tactics ng mga summa. BWAHAHA. i know your secrets. yeah!

may new crush ako. wee. so 2 na sila. haha. CLUE CLUE CLUE. uuwi sila this Christmas. which means.. Kalai sila nagsstay. sa DORM. hmm. and same area sila. (err? tama kaya yun?) hmm. BASTA. sa SOUTH. yung isa SOUTH yung isa CENTRAL yung campus nung highschool. hmm. si new guy.. let's call him number 3.. he looks like a CAT! meow. hahaha. :) si number 2.. emo. sabi ni blockmate smart daw yun kahit tamad. weeee :)







yun lang. <3

yes. the title says it all. haha. kiddin. ewan. wala ko masabi. eto pa..
malas mo, ikaw ang natipuhan ko. from Oo -Up Dharma Down.
eh well. ganun talaga. anyway.. wag na yun.

events next week:
1. Lantern Parade - Dec15
2. Oblation Run - Dec15
3. Math 1st LE - Dec11
4. Physics LE - Dec12/13 ata.

*punta kayo Lantern Parade sa UP Diliman! GAME!! weeeeee. yey. go go go. ahaha. :)

** grabe. ang cute ni crush. yey. :p

weeeeeee. kasama ko si crush kanina. rawr. ang cute nya. and uber nice. bwahaha. pero he doesn't know. and feeling ko mas ok na yung ganito. anyway. argh. bad day.

almost late for chem lec. hmm. sana nga na-late na lang ako. quiz as usual. ARGH. bakit parang ang hirap? found out na tama naman pala yung ginagawa ko. eh. i dont trust myself on this. hehe. so yeah. di ko natapos yung quiz. ARGH talaga! babawi ako. next. chem lab naman. QUIZ DIN. OMG namaaaan. sobrang tanga ng mga answers ko dun, nakakahiya!! haha. sana di na lang icount yun. our instructor told us that if she doesn't like the results of our 1st probset quiz then it won't be counted. yikes. let's hope my classmates didn't do so well on this one. (RAWR. ang bad ng idea na yun. pero sige na. i know they're not prepared as well.. so yeah.)

we were dismissed early by our lab instructor. so, 11am pa lang nakatambay na ko sa labas ng pav3. wow. early bird. hehe. at dumating na nga yung crush ko. tapos. ayun. wala lang. :)

no classes from 1-4pm. walang math. nakooooo. ngayon pa kung kailan yung review namin for thursday long exam. ARGH na naman.

im home. alone. scary. wala ring food na prepared. take note: di pa ko nagbreakfast. at di rin ako kumaen kaninang break. wala lang. excited ako makita si crush e. haha. oh well. ayos lang. aiii. kailangan ko na nga palang mag-aral for math.. and physics. pero math na pala muna. hehehe.

ciao.
<3 astrud

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Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Extreme
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

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im tired of people bitching against other people. yeah. i am pretty tired of it. hmm. im tired of hearing them complain against each other. people backstabbing one another. now.. i cant share details coz its.. hmm.. i just cant. i dont have to explain. ayoko na. promise. mahirap din pala to. i mean.. yeah. im taking sides in this "psychological war" thingy. i hate it. i hate them (those backstabbers). alam mo yun? mabaet sila pag kaharap mo.. tapos pag wala ka na. HELL. masama talaga sila. you know what? I HATE THEM. sila yung mga taong di dapat pinagkakatiwalaan. wala silang silbi. attention whores. tapos dapat laging "FAIR" share. when in fact, lagi silang lamang. i hate them.


now. im confused. why? im not sure if i wanna pursue engg. i mean.. wala sa dream ko maging engineer. i can't imagine myself as Engineer Astrud Q. Malvar. no. DR. Astrud Q. Malvar pwede pa. hmm. ewan. i cried awhile ago because of this. i feel pressured. i think my family wants me to finish this course. yeah. sabi ni mommy wag ko daw seryosohin kasi bata pa ko. sabi ko.. "Ma, pag di ko to sineryoso, di ako makaka-graduate." sabi nya i can take a second course kung ayaw ko talaga. hmm. yeah. yun na lang. i think im going to take med pagkatapos ng engg. if ever di na talaga ko mgshift.

why sick? im figuratively sick. hmm. go figure it out. :p

ciao for now.

*hmm. dapat masaya ako kasi may laptop na ko mamaya. but yeah.

** ahahaha! nagyabang pa talaga.

you know what i hate? here's a list.

1. posers. don't you just hate them? i mean.. come on. stop it. get a life. we don't want you posting in your friendster profile that your occupation is modeling, when you actually don't have a vtr or whatsoever. god. i hate posers.

2. copycats. people who don't have originality are like.. so lame. yeah. i think it's okay to follow the fad/ follow your favorite movie star. whatever. i don't care. but please. i hate people who copy my style. i know it's a compliment, but i hate it. i just do. sino ba naman ako para gayahin nyo? argh.

3. perverts. 3 words. GO TO HELL.

4. backstabbers. (who doesn't?)

5. i hate snakes. and anything that crawls. it creeps me out.

6. i hate public transportation.

7. i hate it when you have to go to a party but you don't have an available transpo. yeah. i hate that.

8. i hate cramming. but i'm a crammer. haha.

9. i hate feeling stupid/ugly/fat.

10. i hate messy foods.

11. hate feelers.

12. i hate people who think they're better than everyone else, when they're not.

13. i hate two-timers. if you REALLY love someone, you have no reason at all, NO REASON, to cheat on him/her. stop being selfish.

14. I HATE POVERTY.

* you know the trend.

** wow. ang hilig ko sa mga lists.