last night was fun. we (batchmates) had a conference. haha :) hmm. many secrets revealed. haha. oh. not too many pala. hehe. just a few..

• jacob likes diane.
• bert likes diane.
• diane likes a kid. oooh. pedophile. haha. kiddin.
• i like that kid too.. <3

he's gonna study in the ateneo. nux. tama. he looks like an atenean na eh. haha :) ok. so much for that. i watched E! news yesterday and found out that my husband, Adam Levine, the vocalist of Maroon 5, was being linked to Jessica Simpson. OMG. i was shocked! i was like, "No way! No effing way!" haha :) whatever. gawd. i love adam. he was linked to the following girls: Natalie Portman, Paris Hilton, Kirsten Dunst, and Lindsay Lohan. oh well. waaaaaaaaaaah. haha. :)

hmm. what else? carlo wants me to watch their game later. ok.

last nyt din.. i think my brother got pissed off when i was chatting with my classmates.. coz i haven't been giving him attention. oh well. i was invited in another conference. some chinese guys.. hmm.. met new friends(?) haha. they were nice. yeah.

read mico's blog entry. yeah. he kinda looks like mikee of pbb. astrud likes mikee. mikee = mico. therefore, astrud likes mico..? haha. ok. no comment. :)

haha. the title is soo not related to this entry. i was watching the news awhile ago. yeah. haha. i thought francis escudero is BAMBOO. gawd. that was weird. i was about to say, "OMG. ang cute ni bamboo..", when i noticed na di pala xa un. haha. whatever.

crap. i can't think of anythin to discuss. whatever. i kinda hate how things are going. i am soooo broke. i need cash. grawr. no boylets. posers everywhere. only thing that keeps me going is.. hmm.. anu nga ba? i dunno. UP i guess. :)

yeah. she rejected me.. for the nth time. can you believe it? i've been rejected! omg. like.. omg talaga. haha. whatever. no.. you might be thinking i'm a lesbo.. NO. i'm not. ok? haha. :)

what else? my sister leaves later for baguio. me..? same old. soooo bored. stuck here. blahblah.

damn. i hate them posers. kill all posers. and backstabbers. and.. HER. hahaha! tsss.. acting all goodie-goodie. whattabitch! haha. :P

this dude.. cofibean.blogspot.com -- haha. funny. so conyotic. and bitchy. yeah. loves it. haha. im like soooo bored ryt now. grawr. been chatting with random people. hmm.. yeah.

next next week.. reunion with reviewmates! yey. i miss them soooo much. <3 haha. hmmm.. im so craving for caramel frap ryt now. argh. wanna go to sleep. haaaay.

check out my pics!
http://astrudweh.multiply.com

-there you go. :)

haha :) happy happy. found out that our admission letters from UP were not delivered. problem with the post-office or something. oh well. goin back to UP tomorrow. been there kanina. saw 2 cuties. <3 haha! hmm.. it is so hot today. whatever.

lorraine's party was fun. hehe. hmm.. many people came. malamang. party e. aun. GRABE! hindi gumana ang diet ko. haha. love foods. yum. monster na naman ako. haha. oh well. haaaay.

yesterday, bez michael called me. weh un e. he called just to make asar. KELVIN daw. weh talaga. hahaha :) tapos.. nakita ko sa acct nya in friendster na may girly xa. grawr. jelly ako ha! hehe. (wow. ng-OL si fan hihi) ok ok. so aun.

i will love you so for always!! :)
** for whom ba tong line na toh? wala pa nga e! corny. haha. :)

got a new bez!!
bez ko na si zeus-y. haha :)

a letter for my future (ex)boyfriend. haha :)

dear guy,
i think i love you. though i haven't met you yet. haha. please try to understand my abnormalities. haha. kiddin. i know im childish at times.. pero minsan lang naman eh. oh well. hmm.. dude. pag tayo na, gusto ko ako lang ha. wag ka na maghanap. imma kill that bitch pag may other girl ka. haha. kiddin. forgive me for bein a psycho. haha. and please.. you know kasi.. sobrang ksp ako. promise. i dunno.. i just love the attention. hmm.. nu pa ba? i cry. a lot. kasi i feel insecure. when this situation comes, i want you to comfort me. ok? please please be a gentleman. i want you to love me and be proud of me. i want you to write me letters, i know it sounds mushy pero it would be fun. im gonna collect all these letters and show it to our future kids. or imma burn it if ever we go on our sepr8 ways. hahaha joke. remembrance un. ryt? ehehe. and please.. don't lie. ok? when i say i trust you, please be worth it. ok? i want your loyalty. haha. (i sound like a dictator) hehehe. ok. that's it for now. I LOVE YOU. i hope to meet you soon. take good care of yourself until then. ok? don't worry.. imma take care of you soon. mwah! <3

blahblah. the drama. loves it.

haha. some reasons why girls like guys. :)

1. The way they run their hands through our hair.
2. The way that they look at you and you want to die right then and there.
3. The way that they casually put their arms around you.
4. The way they show off around their friends, even though you both know that you would love them even if they missed a basket or two.
5. The way that they kiss away your tears...
6. ... and the way that they get mad at how they can't make your problem go away.
7. How their eyes light up at the result of 3 hours of preparing for your date.
8. How they always know just what to say to make you blush.
9. How they sometimes think that they know just what to say to make you feel better, even if you think that it is the worst thing that they could say.
10. The way they hold you close when you are cold.
11. How they look at you when you're mad at them and all your anger melts away.
12. How they always smile when you are together. :)
13. The way that they always let you win any game that you play together...
14. ... and then when you point that out to them they pretend to not know what you are talking about.
15. The way that they smile at you.
16. The way that you feel when they call to apologize after you had a big fight.
17. The way that they say "I love you".
18. The way that they say "I love you" in front of their friends.
19. The way that they touch and hold you so gently, like they are afraid that they will break you.

20. The way that they kiss you.
21. The way that they open their arms to you when you are crying.
22. The way that they never admit that you hurt them.
23. The way that they try not to cry when they are afraid that they are losing you.
24. The way that they think that they are your big protector, even though you think that you are theirs.
25. The way that they say "I miss you", even though they hate to admit it.
26. The way that you miss everything about them when they are gone.
27. The way that they remember your special moments, or anniversaries when you think that they forgot.
28. The way that they apologize when they do forget.
29. The way that they comfort you when you have a bad day.
30.The way that you can't wait to get home and tell them all about your day.
31. The way that they write you love letters even if they think that it is uncool.
32. How they would rather be with you than their friends sometimes.
33. How you want to hug them even though they are all sweaty.

haaaay. <3

hmm.. been on a date with katrisse in gateway. haha :)
ok. so i woke up early. not too early though. haha. around 9-ish i guess. hmm.. day started sluggish. but at around 12pm, i was in a hurry to get ready coz kat said na she was done na! haha. ok. so.. we met at mocha blends. walked across the street. woohoo. jeepney ride! first-timers eh. haha :) ok ok. pretty excited on this journey. grabe. laughtrip. :) hmm.. after that, we met up with heidi. we watched 'Moments of Love' haha :) the movie was.. hmm.. ok. i guess.. i was expecting something Korean-ish eh.. kasi Koreans are experts when it comes to this line, love stories. grabe. their stories are sooooo kilig. though sometimes a bit too mushy na. oh well. i am a hopeless romantic. haha <3 the soundtrack was way hmm.. better than the story? pero all in all.. it was fine. :)

yeah. go nuts baby!! :) i can feel the calories rushing through my veins. nyahahaha. :)

last night, been up late talking with my bez!! :) art is a nice guy. i like him. :)

here's something sweet...

BOY: I need someone to talk to...
GIRL: I'm always here for you.
BOY: I know.
GIRL: What's wrong?
BOY: I like her so much.
GIRL: Talk to her.
BOY: I don't know... she'll never like me.
GIRL: Don't say that. You're amazing.
BOY: I just wanna tell her how i feel...
GIRL: Then tell her.
BOY: She won't like me.
GIRL: How do you know that?
BOY: I can just tell.
GIRL: Well, just tell her.
BOY: What should I say?
GIRL: Tell her how much you like her.
BOY: I tell her that daily.
GIRL: What do you mean?
BOY: I'm always with her. I love her.
GIRL: I know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he'll never like me.
BOY: Wait. Who do you like?
GIRL: Ooh, some boy..
BOY: Oh, anyways, she won't like me.
GIRL: She does.
BOY: How do you know...?
GIRL: Who wouldn't like you?
BOY: You...
GIRL: You're wrong. I love you.
BOY: I love you too.
GIRL: ...so, are you going to talk to her?
BOY: I just did.

**aaww. my heart melts. <3

grrr. where the hell is my letter from UP? oh well. imma inquire tomorrow to make sure.. waaaah. i have to confirm xenia pa.. waaah. :o

hmm.. tomorrow. plans.. eastwood. sana matuloy!! yey. gonna watch a movie with katrisse. yeyey! excited. haha.

today.. read my world history book (again..) i love it! :) haha. learned a lot of things.. i enjoy these stuff. haha :) nerd. oh well. been chatting with zeus. haha :) funny stories. bout.. hmm.. wag na.. it's a guy thing. and.. stuff. haha :)

hmm. la na masabi.
take care. tss.. haha :)

I LOVE ME! :)

weh. la ko masabi. hahaha :)
i miss bez michael. weh yun eh. kinalimutan na ko. weh talaga. oinky! haha. tapos.. ewan na.. last night.. hmm.. senti. pero masaya. wow. labo. tapos.. today is card day. rawr. haha :)
last night, i had this weird dream. i was lost daw, tapos, nakita ko si vincent! wow. galeng. haha. tapos hug daw kami, and holding hands. wehehe. tapos.. aun. nakita ko na yung car kaya tumakbo na ko. haha. :) weird. tapos he said a line, which i forgot na, pero something related bout us e. haha :) oh well. tapos he has classes na! aga.. haha. ok aun.

grrr. wanna go to the beach. need to relax. been too stressed out over the just-finished events in my life.

yey. after two days of nonstop watchin.. haha. kiddin. im done with ROME. wow. it was nice. i felt really connected to this series coz i love history! promise. you don't have to tell me to like it.. i simply do. haha :) labo. oh well. learned many things from watchin. hmm.. i like the Roman culture.. haha :) weird people. grabe. they were sooo hot! i mean.. Octavian (though he looks like a totoy..) grabe. i love him. haha :)

yeah yeah. so much for that. moving on...
tomorrow.. card day. happy happy. sa wakas.. makakalabas na rin ako ng bahay. hahaha :)
stuck here for weeks. haaaay.. oh well.

UP here i come. soooo excited! promise.. i wanna walk on the UP grounds. :)
sana pumayat ako kakalakad sa UP haha :)
orientation.. malapit na. hope to see flip. my crushie from review days. hehehe :)

*i feel loved. i don't need him. i know. people adore me. i don't have to go low for someone.. dbdb? yeah.

this is a random entry since ive been wanting to write an entry but can't think of a subject to discuss. oh well.

yesterday(4.15.06) - woke up at around 10am to find myself still sleepy. but i tried to stay awake.. :) hihi. oh well.. at around 2pm, i think, we went to vista real. i went online.. blahblah. chat with kuya. watched his vids. viewed his pix. yeah. it was fun. at least i had something to do. hehehe. around 8pm-ish? i dunno.. went ol again. karl was ol. he messaged me. he said he lost his sun sim. aun. so that explains why he hasn't been texting me for quite some time now. pero aun. unfortunately, he was on smart na and i was on globe. hmm.. i think this is a sign. we were so not meant to be. haha :) he gave me his number.. and i was surprised coz he didn't ask for mine.. oh well.. maybe he was just not interested na. aun. though i did have his number, i didn't text him. coz.. i dunno. i moved on i guess..

from 10pm-3am = ROME marathon!! yeah!

hmm.. yesterday, i was texting with my bestfriend, mc, bout plans for monday. we're gonna go to galleria to watch.. (drum roll please..) Moments of Love.. woohoo! jologs ko. oh well.. i wanna watch it tlga eh! haha :) and another topic was the soulmate thingy.. upon these things, i decided to make a list for my qualifications..

My Soulmate:
1. he doesn't have to be academically excellent, pero he should atleast know what's happening around the world.. or atleast in the Philippines.. db? he should be aware.. i like that :)
2. behaves well when family is around
3. should be atleast 5'6 in height.. hihi :) and is involved in any sport.
4. should know how to play atleast 1 musical instrument.. (guitar would be a total plus!)
5. should come from a good school. :)
6. must have good family background.
7. SWEET!
8. concerned. caring.
9. LOYAL. yung tipong ayaw mo na sa kanya, pero he waits. kahit 5yrs pa xa mgw8. :) aaww.. that is soooooo sweet. haha.
10. would be willing to do anything for me.. (don't worry.. i won't hurt you nman eh.. haha)
11. kinda possessive.. to the point na seloso. haha. weird. :)
12. kinda controlling.. *this applies if i totally love the guy na. haha :)
13. gentleman.
14. cute/ good-looking. (don't worry again.. coz they tell me na hindi naman daw talaga cute yung mga type ko.. may appeal lang.. i guess. so if you think na may x-factor ka. hehe)

If you've got atleast 5 of the qualifications i'm looking for.. please apply. haha :)

hmm.. flight knina ni zeus-y. went to disneyland hk for 2 days, before going to china.
wow. buti pa xa. huhu.. ako. im stuck here. with no plans at all. how lame! :(
haha. oh well..
been texting him these past few days. haha. :)
he texted me nung thursday.. he was watching 'sigaw' daw.
and he was scared. imagine..? naalala nya ko kasi natatakot xa. haha. o.O
weird.
he's gonna be living near uste na. pacific suites..? not sure. hehe. im gonna visit him there.

BUFF na un e. whatever. haha :)

nako. i forgot!

jops - waaah. steeg to e. tagsh days. adek. haha. maroon5 ko? ha? weh. hehehe. salamat at kahit mjo nabaliw ako nung el fili ay di ka tumigil sa pagtangkilik sa akin.. (wtf?) haha. un na un.
kyra - bez ko nung h1. hehe. ewan. weirdo ka pero napakabaet mo at mahal na mahal kita. ahaha:) di ako nkapunta sa birthday mo ah! daya. hmmp. hehe. joke.
carlo - patrick star ka. oink. mahal ko si carlo. ehehe. tandaan ko pa nung nag-war kami ni.. yan. si carlo kasi eh.. xa ang nagpalala ng situation! haha. joke.
kouji - crushie ko nung gr1. thanks sa dance nung prom. <3
naz - thanks! financer yan eh. hehe. thanks nung naging free-loader kami. ehehe.

corrections dun sa previous post: ruth - [mood] move dapat! haha :o

like. omg. soooo hot.
whatever. haha :)
i miss my classmates! i love them soooo much.. ok. let's make a list of people who made me.. complete <3

aaww. MY CLIQUE:
ruth - woohoo. busmate! loyal toh. hehe. haynako. stop with the pride thing na kasi.. see? sayang nung grad! you should have made your mood (wth?) haha. i mean.. the 'zeus' thingy.. sayang. hopefully next time na kita-kits you guys will be ok na. :)
heidi - my specail. she guides me.. aaww :) baet na bata. saludo ako sayo. hehe :)
francis - aaww! grabe. imma miss him. my bartender. he listens to every story.. kahit whole day ko ikwento sa kanya. eventho i know na minsan hindi na talaga xa nakikinig, atleast may effort na mag-"hmm.. o? ok.." db? that's all i need. lucky charm ako nito eh.. haha :)
christianne - busmate!! grabe. im gonna miss you. i get scoops of stories from this gal :)
stemely - tho im kinda confused kung anu ka nga talaga, i still am happy for having you. kahit na-trauma ako dun sa "EK thingy" natin.. hehe

MY GUYS: (hihi)
marc - aaww! thanks sobra. sobrang.. ewan. you made me strong talaga.
pocholo - you are soooo gay, but i love you <3 haha. grabe. cholo is the guy im not ashamed to tell my stories to. haha. kasi.. ewan. i feel warm when i talk to him :)

IDOLS:
katrisse - future business partner ko! yey. miss organized. galeng. pero nako.. get away from the soju! hyper pag wasted na eh. hehe kiddin. :) ice queen daw talaga according to marc. kasi db? about the love thingy.. hehe. bez ko to nung gr.6
bubu - idol! sobrang.. baet. caring. haaay. swerte ng magiging guy nito. hehe. entrepreneur yan!

KARAOKE-mates:
madjo - waaaaaah. katuwa toh. galing sa comp. nux! lasallista eh. panu ba yan? haha :) in my eyes.. koreana ka na! yes.. natupad din. haha. kiddin.. :) karaoke-mates pa rin ha!
pring - semi moore!! best-dressed eh.. wahaha. sobrang thin mo.. pataba ka na nga. palit tayo. hehe.
sujina - the korean cutie! yes.. haha. sujina baboy. susan. haha. super cutie. and nice! and really smart. nice voice too.. :) alfredo..? hehe

THE GUYS: (seryoso.. guys na tlga toh hehe)
zeus - haaay. tanda mo na. hehe. ewan. words can't describe how happy i am for being his friend. hmm.. iba toh eh.. effortless. mamahalin mo kahit ayaw nya! haha. kaya baliw na baliw jan si ruth eh. wahaha :) delfinson. mukhang tough pero softie rin yan eh. sayang i wasn't there when he was being sooo dramatic.. coz of diane! haha :)
jonot - weh ka. sige lang. call me fat. give me a month and let's see.. haha. joke. pero baet toh. sobra. wifee.. yikee!! hehe. good luck sa inyo. sana forever na yan. :)
chi - thanks kasi sinamahan mo ko mgwalk-a-thon from convergys to vista real. tama na chx! ah. may alam ako dito.. 5254! yikee.. db? wait for her ha.. after ng college <3
rene - hehe. salamat. yes. ginawa ko ung promise ko.. the valedictorian thingy. hehe. db?

king - another guy who made me strong. db? thanks so much for the advice.. and nung heart-to-heart talk natin.. remember..? thanks for listening. grabe yun. first time ko mag-open-up! ehehe
xenia - aaww. sweet girl. promise. sana alagaan to nung guy nya. don't let her go. minsan lang ang ganyang klaseng girl. love her. and cherish her. :)
sheryl - nako. i was scared when she got wasted eh. hehe. joke. basta.. i remember prom. prom won't be the same without her. and her dance moves. nakanaman.. haha. CIARA eh! panu ba yan? :) hihi

EUNICE - haaay. i miss you soooo much. you made me a better person. kahit nr ka lang nung naging dramatic ako sa text dati.. ok lang. basta. i wanna thank her so much. eye-opener xa. yung bez nito (madjo, shoti) don't let her go. the best yan. promise. kawalan nyo talaga pag nawala xa sa inyo.

diane - gay! wala ko masabi sayo. weh ka eh. hehe. kita-kits na lang. at salamat sobra. hehe :)

**guys sa u-belt! kita-kits ha.. imma visit you guys there. :)
ingat kayo. and good luck sa tin..

while doing surveys on friendster.. i stumbled upon this question:

10. What do you like in a guy/girl?
- gentleman. someone who doesn't like waiting..
someone who will play his guitar while we're on
the phone. someone who will tell me that i'm hyper
and that being hyper is a sickness, but he still likes
me coz opposites attract.. someone who will keep
me sane in times of insanity <3

ooooh. this is sad.
everything reminds me of..

him.

effingness. i got a cut while slicing onions.
hoho. :)

hello blood.

whew. i miss everyone.
<3

crap. what a sad day.
hell. i've been missing him.. for too long.
haaay. so dramatic. haha whatever :)

hmm.. eto na lang. sweetest things a guy can do for a girl:

Smell her hair...
Talk to her in movie theatres...
Hold her hand while u talk...
Tell her she's beautiful...
Look her in the eye when u talk to her...
Tell her stupid jokes...
Let her mess with ur hair...
Just walk around wit her...
Look at her like shes the only girl you see...
Tickle her Even if she says stop...
When she starts swearing at u,tell her u love her....
Let her fall asleep in ur arms....
Get her mad,then kiss her....
Tease her...
Let her tease u back...
Kiss her enough, but dont over kiss her...
Stay up wit her all night when shes sick... **aaww
Watch her favorite movie...
Kiss her forehead...
Write her letters...
If she asks u 2 go 2 a show with her, go...
Let her wear ur clothes...
When shes sad,hang out with her...
Buy her ice cream...
Let her take all the photos of u she wants...
Kiss her in the rain...
And when u fall in love with her tell her... *yes. he has done this.. :)

I LOVE KARL. <3

yeah. i heart KARL.
i feel complete when he came.. haha :)

i can't stop thinking bout him.
aaww. :'(

i feel empty without him.
i need him.
*sigh*

basta.. i can relate to this line:
"i'd rather have you as a friend, than not have you at all."

ok. friend zone for now.
he said: "kung magiging tayo talaga, magiging tayo..."
ok.

I CAN WAIT.
even if it takes you another 16yrs to realize na you would want me back.

karl was like the blessing God gave me when I failed the audition.
(hmm.. come to think of it, im not even sure if i failed nga. pero oh well.. i think i did.)

KARL. wow. typing his name gives me butterflies.
am i obsessed? haha :)
whatever.
anyways..
ayoko na maging happy.. sana lagi na lang ako sad.
coz when im happy. WALA. wala si karl.

when im sad. jan c KARL.

anu ba? parang ang gulo.
di na ko kumakaen ng matino for three days now.
yesterday.. i survived the day by drinking approximately 800mL of fresh orange juice.
grabe.
i just can't eat.
lagi ko xa naiicp.
ayoko na.

i can't sleep straight pa.
wow.
haha.
ok.
this is just a phase..
i think.
db?
am i right?

I'M LOSING HIM.
no.
I LOST HIM.
i WANT him BACK.

NOW.

hmm.. my story started last monday.

ok. here goes.
monday. my audition in UP College of Music.
hell.. i wanna enter this college. pero i wasn't expecting na it was that hard pala. like, omg talaga.
haha.
oh well.
after my audition.. im pretty sure i failed.

ok ok. moving on.
at around 12pm i went onlyn.

hmm.. ok. at 1st no one bothered to pm me.
then.. my newest crushie went ol. i was like.. so excited. haha :)
around 6 people kept buzzing. i hate it when people buzz. it annoys me. sobra.
pero when karl buzzed.. wow. haha. it was like.. ewan. heaven! haha. corny.

ok. after nun.. he got my number sa sun.. so, malamang i gave him my number db? tapos i asked for his.. (hmm.. just to make sure na may commu pa rin once i log out na. hehe) pero sabi nya no! aba. i was shocked.. kala ko he was mean. haha. pero after a minute or so.. i rcvd his 1st message. aaww. grabe. kilig naman ako.. whatever.. haha. this was his msg: Hunnie...
**haha! like omg. ryt? kilig. promise. i haven't felt this feeling in a long time. tapos.. 2nd msg: mwah! i want to know u better..
argh. grabe. i was sooooo happy!!! promise :)
ibang feeling talaga e. aun. tapos i logged out na kasi la na rin xa e.

hmm. after nun he asked me if i was allowed to go out. so.. aun. i said yeah. tapos i watched 50 first dates. we were still texting nun.. tapos we decided to make pancakes. tapos while i was making pancakes he kept texting and he even asked for my landline number.. hmm.. yeah. aun. so another kilig moment. gosh. grabe. di talaga xa makahintay.. he kept texting na bilisan ko daw.. i almost died choking on those dried pancakes!! wahaha. pero ok lang. basta xa.

our first phone conversation lasted for about an hour++. that was from 4.45 to 6pm. i think.
then i had dinner na. grabe. aga.. haha :)

here's the line which made me fall: alam mo bka mainlove ako sayo..

oh? ok. haha :)

HAPPY day.

ok.
the end.