if i don't channel my aggression, i may seriously be able to kill someone/myself. this may be the reason why i have become so competitive. i've been channeling my need to hurt someone. i guess i've never learned control. what a happy birthday.

i wanna die. right now. on my 20th birthday. great.

it's complicated like that.

can i just say, I am completely infatuated with this someone. someone just like me! the thing is... I don't understand. :( I can't. truth is, I don't want to understand. oh so sad. I hope he likes me. if he does, then I'd go all in. whatever. I won't care. I'll accept whatever this someone's conditions are. just because.

i used to believe that people are essentially good. times like this make me want to change that. people are disappointing. no matter how much you love them, its just sad to see so much potential gone to waste. i am starting to hate something i really really like. i believed in. :(

maybe im just expecting too much from them. :(
im starting to lose it.





i just need someone, just one, to please me. its my turn. i can't always be the one pleasing everyone.

apparently, music drives me. it still annoys me how much i like lady gaga's songs now. i hate her. well, i don't hate her. i just hate the annoying attention whore-ish way she expresses herself through her walking pop art clothes. a fashion no-no for me. i go for audrey hepburn's style :) anyway, enough about my style preference. i got my much needed boost from her songs. and im happy happy again! :D

YAAAAAAY can't wait for 1st sem! :)

this is never going to work is it? :(
i can never understand. or are we too subtle?
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1st sem i feel you. got my crs account fixed. had a great day yesterday. i miss everyone. and i miss feeling. something. something.

i wish i had something better to do than go online and stalk you. whoa. rhymes. skills. yea yea. anyway. yea. ive been going back and forth with this. eck. i dont even like you that much. you amuse me though. haha